I have no religion, I don't want active burdens from the past, I have no mental illnesses, the responsibilities are so generalized in my head that they've become routine... I've never felt lighter, freer, more sentimental. I'm a person of few promises, promises for me are pacts with the soul, committing to do something even if it lasts the rest of your life, until your death. Promising something, for me, is like taking a little piece of your soul, of your person and trusting yourself and the subject to complete that task and put that little bit of your soul back in its place.
I don't make promises to other people because they're unpredictable, they forget, they die, they go places, they develop unnecessarily complex lives... I am the person I trust the most for a thing like that, I tear a piece of myself to fulfill the promise, I would tear off a limb for a message to myself, I am in control of myself, if I'm not, no one else can be. I'm going to be a crazy person walking around. I hoped to change one day, leaving everything behind, living as a new person, new habits, new people, it was inevitable that my pasts would haunt me.
"Hey Leo, how's it going?"
"Umm I think you're talking to the wrong person".
"Don't you remember me? I know it's you, you can't hide behind a new body, a new mind, a new appearance, I can still see that shine in your eyes".
"Do you need help? Sir.. I don't know you".
Disgust... disgust.. DISGUST DISGUST UGH... Bubble-bursting sir, ring-holding sir, gun-holding sir, I want you to jump off the bridge 2 blocks from here and drown.
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